relief

Easter fun!

March is FINALLY over.  I am so incredibly relieved. 

We survived all of our 2nd anniversaries and even enjoyed ourselves quite a bit throughout the month.  We didn't have as many people helping us through the month of March as we did last year.  But that was okay.  We are stronger now and not as needy.  We are just so grateful for those that did volunteer to be our friends.  I wish that they could all get an award.  They deserve it!!!

Last week was the roughest.  It was the 2 year anniversary of Nate's death, the anniversary of his funeral and ... Easter.

Easter is a bittersweet holiday for us.  It's special because it's the one and only Holiday that Nate was with us and difficult because it's another "holiday".  I found myself reflecting a lot that day about how special our Easter was 2 years ago.  It was extremely difficult to be in the Hospital on a holiday.  However, Nate was off the ventilator and we got to hold him that day.  That is a memory that will be forever etched into my memory.  Easter and holding my sweet Nathan.  Those will always go hand in hand.

This Easter, I attended my first family gathering in 2 years (with the exception of my FIL's funeral).  We only stayed an hour and let's just say that I survived.  We planned some fun activities to help the time pass and the kids enjoyed themselves despite not knowing who most of the people were.  I am glad that I am who I am now.  I am glad that I am not the same person that I was.  Attending events like that serve as a good reality check.  I know that I am on the path that I want to be.  I just don't fully trust myself yet.  I want to be polite.  Just polite.  Nothing more and nothing less.

It's been a huge relief getting past last week and then Easter.   Now we're on Spring Break.  No homework, school schedules, sports (4 of them), and no early mornings - yipee!!!  We have been super busy going to Disneyland, the movies, Chuck E Cheese, ice skating and playing video games (them not me).  I had a bunch of free passes to these fun places and I think that we used them all!  It has been such a wonderful week.  I don't want it to end. I keep telling myself that Summers coming and I can't wait to do this everyday!!!

*** You may have noticed that Kyla has a cast on her arm in the above photo.  She fell off the swing 2 weeks ago and broke it (it was a crooked break and had to be "re-set" by a specialist).  She had just finished a 2 hour advanced gymnastics class where she was flipping all over the place and doing all kinds of dangerous stuff.  And then she falls off our backyard swing while eating a snack.  Crazy!  She's been a trooper though.  No complaining and it comes off in 2 more weeks!  Figures that we would have to deal with more medical drama during the month of March-ugh!!!