Thankful

Tis the season...to be thankful.  Last year I couldn't find it in me.  I really couldn't.  My grief and sadness outweighed my joy by such a tremendous amount that I couldn't even see it.  I knew that I was thankful.  I knew that my life had blue sky in it.  But, all I could see were the dark gray clouds. 

This year, I have a lot of blue sky around me.  This year, I am truly thankful.  I know how much that I take for granted every day.  I know that many people don't even have clean water to drink.  I want to appreciate what I have.  I want to rejoice about my many blessings.


I am thankful for my husband who loves me even despite my flaws
and for my 4 healthy children that light up my life.

I am thankful that I live in a beautiful house
and that I am able to raise my kids in a safe neighborhood.

I am thankful that I am physically healthy
and I can run, swim, play soccer, ride bikes and rollerblade with my kids.

I am thankful that we have friends
and they are no longer fair-weathered friends that will leave when times get tough.

I am thankful that my husband has a job
and that he can provide all the "needs" and many of the "wants" for our family.

I am thankful that if Nate can't be with me that he is in Heaven
and that I know he is safe and being well taken care of.

I am thankful that my anger at the people who abandoned us when Nate died is lifting
and I am able to interact with most people without having an anxiety attack.

I am thankful that I am still here on earth with my kids and my husband
and that God didn't strike me down when I begged Him to.

I am thankful for the support that I've found from other mommies who just "know"
and that God has allowed me to feel loved by them.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!